Inside my mind I live a life
Where thoughts knock at the door
find the deep recesses of my mind
and fertile ground to explore
I size them up – look hard at each one
begin to let my guard down
gradually weaken
and beckon them to come
They are dark and mysterious
enticing in their ploy
I weakly protest, “not fair – not fair”!
All the while knowing they will destroy
They find a willing participant
someone who tries to hide
denying they have any hold
and pushing away – or so I’ve tried
It is a constant struggle
to ignore the “thoughts” of this menacing foe
knowing that just because they are present
does not make the “event” necessarily so
I’ve become so cozy with these “friends” of mine
too lazy to push them out – and wave good-bye
they are an unrelenting presence
happy in their efforts to “bring me down” and make me cry
This is the struggle I face
keeping the dark thoughts “at bay”
while trying to focus on life and health
and push the “dark” ones away
“Help me Lord” – I pray
To gather up the strength from You
To fight the “unseen” enemy inside my head
Cleanse my mind – and to renew
When those “thoughts” come knocking
May they find – to their surprise
No “safe” place to make their home
A closed door policy – FOREVER – for their lies.
I am forever washing my mind
searching every corner with care
scrubbing and cleaning the deep recesses
for a special “guest” to permanently reside there
God Bless ♥
Cindy Holman 
Comments on: "Thoughts" (6)
Those dark thoughts are a bit like burglars; they sneak in when we aren’t watching.
I think nobody is completely free of them, Cindy. It’s just that some of us might have better “locks” on the doors of our minds.
Sometimes I can see and hear them coming and I quickly close that door; locking it behind me so they can’t come in. It’s hard work though, at times. 🙂
Totally agree! Thanks Maya ♥
I love your authenticity Cindy!
If we’re honest with ourselves, I think all of us struggle with thoughts that aren’t always positive and rosey. The darker ones always want to sink down and anchor themselves deep within us, rising to the surface like some creature from the ocean depths, then sinking back down again after causing a turmoil.
I too like you need the constant cleansing of prayer and the word of God to keep them from making a permanent home in my heart. Just because I experience some of these thoughts doesn’t mean I need to provide them safe quarter!
Greg
Thanks Greg ♥
I really like the rhythm and flow of this, Cindy. Great mental pictures. It emotes! I, for one, can relate. Very powerful this working of the inner mind. I too am “so cozy with these ‘friends'”. Ouch…but thanks! Something to “chew” on today.
Thanks Ron – it’s a journey, isn’t it? Your poetry gives me much to “chew on” too – and most of the time my response is pretty much the same as yours – OUCH!! Nice to know we aren’t alone, isn’t it?