I saw this quote today on one of my friend’s facebook page.
There are two kinds of people: those who say to God, “Thy will be done,” and those to whom God says, “All right, then, have it your way.”
C. S. Lewis
I have struggled and wrestled with this many times over the years. It is so much easier to DO SOMETHING than to sit back and wait for God to reveal His plan for me – sitting in silence. I was moved and inspired by the words of my friend Ron Almberg in his blog article yesterday:
It is nice to know that I am not alone. That silence is sometimes the answer. That standing strong in faith is not for the “fainthearted” or those that “give up” too easily when hurt and pain come into play.
Faith is a funny thing. It is a conviction that no matter what is going on around you – you are unmoved and unswayed by human emotion. Everything can be falling apart around you (and sometimes it is) and yet – you still can stand.
I have to say – that no matter what has gone on in my life – circumstances I found myself in the middle of – some by my own choosing – some that were not – I never once questioned my faith.
But waiting for God’s will – that’s entirely another subject. I would rather be active and “help” God to find the answer. At least I’m doing SOMETHING, right?
I am guilty of being the kind that God finally says, “Okay – have it your way” I usually make a really good attempt at it – do GREAT things – help people – be a “leader” and good “role model” for others. Try to make “right” a very bad or complicated “wrong” – and then just end up making a BIG MESS out of it. The more complicated – the deeper in I go.
We are responsible for our own bad choices. Maybe they weren’t necessarily bad choices to begin with – but somewhere down the path they became that way. We told too much – we received too much – we revealed what should not have been – we blindly accepted things because of pride and because it made us feel good – we trusted the wrong person – and the list goes on and on.
I cannot blame the devil. I cannot blame God. I did it. Me. Myself. No one else. I can’t blame my brother. I can’t blame my sister. I can’t blame my childhood or other events in my life. I can only hold myself responsible.
When God allows me to “do my own thing” for a season – it is because of His great love for me. He not only loves me – He actually likes me. Is He aware that I’m going to completely MESS IT UP? Oh yes. Does He let me do it anyway? Yes. And what I find waiting for me at the end of my insistence to “have it my way” – is brokenness and heartache. Living outside the “walls” of His protection and proper boundaries reeks havoc on the heart and emotions. And from one who really knows what she speaks of – take it from me: It is NOT worth it.
Finding God’s Will for my life may be just as simple as continuing to live close to His side – hearing His voice in every area of my life and heart. Being sensitive to the “dangers” all around me – and my own personal weaknesses. Allowing Him to whisper to me – and breathe His purpose and direction into my daily activities. Letting go of the things from the past that are heavy for me. Keeping my life simple and directed. Allowing His mind and thoughts to permeate through me as I do my work – as I relax at home – as I speak with others who are struggling – as I teach my precious students – as I encourage and build up my husband – as I interact with my son. All of these things are normal – everyday things I do. And I find fulfillment – from the simple ordinary tasks. Maybe that’s the secret. Maybe the simple – is God’s will.
As you patiently wait today for “God’s will” to be revealed in your ordinary normal world – may you also rest in the knowledge that God not only loves you – He actually likes you. – It’s good to know. ♥