Musings From A Musical Mind

I Am Ready…Still…

The following is taken from a blog post one year ago tomorrow.  It was heartfelt and hopeful and I still am that girl – waiting for the day…one year later…
It is important to stop, reflect and look back – so that we can see how much change and growth has happened to us over time – if we allow God to work on us – soften our hearts and let things go that we can’t fix.
It is also important to learn the things that can’t be fixed and that it’s sometimes a blessing in disguise to NOT get the things you ask for.  And that is the hardest lesson of all.  To know that God sometimes heals through things not given – and through other people and relationships we encounter on our journey.  It has taken me a long time to learn this – but I’m so glad to be finally getting it.

Posted by: Cindy Holman on: May 18, 2009

I am beginning

to see

a new beginning

a new challenge

that is before me

a door I must walk through

but

It scares me

It is the unknown

I don’t know

how it will turn out

In my heart

I can see

things

and relationships

as God sees them

whole

and healthy

A meeting of the minds

and hearts

joining of “like” spirits

wanting understanding

and reconciliation

I am ready

I am waiting

Waiting for God’s timing

Waiting for God’s healing

I am ready

I can already see it

but

I am afraid

It is the scary unknown

Help me Lord to be ready when final healing takes place for me and all those in my life – and for anyone reading this today.  I pray that our hearts will be open for you to do a special and deep work in our lives today so that you will be glorified as the only true relationship healer.  I pray a special blessing on my readers today that you will give them a wonderful day –  full of love, hope and promise of tomorrow.

God Bless.

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Comments on: "I Am Ready…Still…" (3)

  1. Learning the less of “the things that can’t be fixed” is a hard one, isn’t it Cindy? You are also right to recognize that sometimes the biggest blessings are NOT getting what we at one time were so desperately praying for to happen to or for us. Painful but important lessons, that is for certain. Of course, the journey perhaps would not have been so painful in my experience if I had not fought it all along the way. (Sigh – I can be such a so learner…)

    • Me too Ron – me too. Although at the time of trouble I was sure I knew more than God. And I was angry – but more sad and heartbroken at the circumstances. I wanted to go back and fix it – wanted a chance to be heard – wanted to understand the betrayal from a trusted friend – ALL OF IT! But in the end – it is and has become part of my journey and growth and dependance on God. So…I wouldn’t change anything – except maybe that final ultimate prayer of changed and softened hearts. That will never change.

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