Every journey has them. Every life encounters them. They are speed bumps.
I’m keenly aware of the ones in my life. Even long after they have happened. It’s interesting that the speed bump appears just as I’ve hit my stride and I’m feeling great – when sailing along at top speed – doing what I always do.
I don’t like speed bumps. I never have. I don’t like slowing down. Sometimes I have not slowed down and made proper allowances for the speed bump – only to hear a very loud noise as my car plows over it – and it makes me cringe. Speed bumps are put there for one purpose: to MAKE us slow down. Slow down – or ELSE.
There are events in my life that have also made me slow down. Just when I thought I had it all together. All the people important to me and my world in their proper place. Something happens. Causing my world to not only slow down – but come to a complete stop. Oh I didn’t want to stop. I didn’t even want to slow down and call it a ‘speed bump’ – but in retrospect – that’s exactly what it was. Something that shook me down to my foundation – made me take inventory and readjust. I didn’t want to. It hurt.
Ever feel like this? Things happen that make you slow down and sometimes come to a complete stop? Dead in your tracks? You’re not alone.
I believe that God knows and understands this. If I didn’t believe this – there would be no hope for me. He listens and understands without judgment – without condemnation. He knows I am guilty – of so many things – of not slowing down and showing more caution and much more. But He is in the restoring business – and He pursues me with a love like no other. Lavish and full. Complete in forgiveness and grace. And I weep. For no one understands my heart like He does. No one loves me like this. I weep for the loss. I weep because I cannot fix things. I weep because I am sad. And He knows and whispers to me that it’s only temporary – only a speed bump along my journey.
Those speed bumps have taught me something valuable that I can hang onto. I am still me – and they don’t keep me from being who I am – but instead teach me an important lesson about slowing down – and recognizing danger – before I get there and plow recklessly into it. And I have His promise that He will journey with me – no matter how bad the speed bump is in the future.
He is much more concerned with my heart than any external circumstances and I believe He will allow anything – even those speed bumps along the way in order for me to be more sensitive and bring me closer to understanding His heart.
I am praying for you