I’m looking for a little switch that I’ve misplaced. It should be a simple thing to find – but I can’t locate it.
My computer has such a switch – so does my desk lamp – my candle warmers and the lights all around my house. If I don’t want anything on anymore – I just flip the switch – to OFF!
My mind used to have one of these – long ago when I was much younger and slept deeper. These days I cannot find the switch that shuts off the endless conversations with unseen people and circumstances – they follow me into my dreams.
Last night Greg was out working very late and I tried to settle in, relax and go to sleep. Again – I could not find the switch and everything in my mind was turned to ON! And sadly, ‘ON’ means – nothing is quiet. Everything is up for grabs – including different case scenarios for past events – and conversations with certain individuals I know I’ll NEVER have. Somehow my mind tries to make up for the lack. It gladly fill in the blanks on events that have no answers. This can be good – and it can be VERY BAD. Sometimes the imagination of the mind – leaves me feeling sad – because none of it is true.
I’d still like to find my ‘switch’ – and never lose it again. I would turn it ‘Off’ when getting ready to turn in for the night – and then turn it to ‘ON’ when ready to get up – giving my exhausted brain a chance to recover. *Sigh*
Do you have a ‘switch’? Or have you misplaced it somewhere along the way, like I have?
In a perfect world – we would never lose that switch – and in a perfect world things would be solved, conflicts brought to right and everyone come to an understanding – and there would be no need for such a switch.