Sometimes I lay awake at night and ask, ‘Where have I gone wrong?’ then a voice says to me, ‘This is going to take more than one night.'”
Ever feel like Charlie Brown? I know I have. I used to love watching the ‘bumbling through life’ character – who never hid what he was feeling – good or bad. But now I have to admit – it’s painful to watch him try to ‘slug it out’. Because I feel like I’m looking in a mirror. Ouch.
I used to like to identify with the other characters instead – Schroder who says nothing – but just sits and plays the piano – YEARS above where he should be playing. *Sigh* – but I am NOT Schroder.
Sally is shy and sweet – naive and innocent – but still with an attitude. And much as I want to think that’s who I am – (I have been accused of this) sadly I am not.
And what about Linus? Linus who doesn’t have great personal hygiene – but who knows how to be a friend and how to give great advice. Someone dependable and true. I’d like to think that this is who I am – not the personal hygiene part – but you get the picture. But I’m not always like this either.
I have WAY too much to say – like Lucy. And NO ONE wants to be like Lucy. Lucy is loud and opinionated – quick to judge – first to abandon – slow to forgive. VERY narcissistic. But that is not me either – or is it? I hope not.
In the end – I am mostly like Charlie Brown. At least inside. Bumbling through life – trying to get people to understand me – trying to fit it – saying all the wrong things – trusting too much – expecting things will always be good – or always be bad – down on myself – totally pessimistic and then totally optimistic. That’s me. And it’s probably you too. Living in a Lucy world. Trying to impress – do something great – leave my mark – only to have all the “Lucy’s” of the world say, “You’re a blockhead, Charlie Brown”. Yeah – that’s how it feels some days.
Are you also a Charlie Brown living in a Lucy world? Cheer up! Charlie had a lot of problems – but he was the most authentic and real person – never down for long – always ready to pick himself up and try again – no matter how many times he got it wrong. No matter how many times Lucy told him he couldn’t do something – or how stupid he was. Charlie is not the brightest – or the best looking. But he’s real – and he knows who he is. He’s just Charlie Brown – nothing more. We can learn a lot about him – and be encouraged.
It doesn’t make all the “Lucy’s” in our life go away – but in a way – it’s a nice reminder. Be yourself – when you stumble – get up.
Here’s to you Lucy – GOOD GRIEF – You will NOT win.