Yesterday I touched on a subject that is delicate. One that is personal and can sometimes be secretive. Ownership and a grasp of a deep and contemplative question: What is your personal truth? I explained it – and expanded on it just a little in an attempt to show how if we are not able to grasp that for ourselves – it is impossible to be totally authentic with God.
First – what does truth mean? It can mean two things:
1. Truth can be scary. What if I admit something about my character to God that is less than what others believe of me – or less than I even have attempted to believe about myself? What if God does not accept me when He finds out? What if He rejects me?
2. Truth brings personal responsibility. As long as no one knows – and I have cleverly hidden all aspects of myself from God – then I cannot be held responsible. Once revealed for what it really is – I must take ownership and change the behavior. There is no middle ground on this. And this can be scary.
And although most of us believe that God is a loving God who forgives – whether raised in church or not – it is still easy to believe this in our head only – and not really believe it with our heart. I mean – there’s a limit to what God will forgive, right? Or what He will accept about me, right? And so with this thinking it can be difficult to really come clean with things like:
Failure (moral or otherwise)
Greed and selfishness
It is easy to hide from things in the above list – and not really admit or own it.
What if my personal truth looks like this?:
I am a failure
I am a liar
I am an addict
I am worthless
I caused someone I love to go away
I am not lovable
If God knew what I thought He would not love me
All of the above statements could be true in your life today. But here is the really good news:
God has a different view of truth. He is able to cut to the chase whether I am honest about myself to Him or not. He will wait for a confession – and an admission of truth from me – He is a gentleman. And when I allow Him to change how I see that truth based on His reflection of love and grace – I find there is no fear – only a far greater understanding of myself than I ever thought I had. And it’s okay – because He loves me anyway – just the way I am – broken, full of sin and failure, unable to help myself or even be honest about it.
His personal truth for ME radically changes my life.
His truth looks like this:
I don’t see personal failure – I see a bruised masterpiece
I don’t see addiction – I see a wonderful freedom
I don’t see inadequacy and the feeling of worthlessness – I see a precious gift
I don’t see the sin – it’s been covered
God’s truth is better than my attempt at truth
God’s truth is better than my self-righteous claim
God’s truth does not have any room for my pride or feeling of entitlement
What I try to deny and hide from Him – He knows and will deal with me
God’s truth about me – is the only truth I need in my life.
God’s truth is the only thing that will change my behavior from the inside out.
His truth says:
I am worth so much – that He sent His son – to die for me.
Wow. Is it really possible that I’m worth dying for? How can that be?
He values me
He loves me
I am worthy
I am validated
I am loved
And no matter what I do – I cannot change this truth about myself – as God sees me. It is indisputable in His eyes.
Are there areas of your heart that you have not allowed God to shine His truth? How long has it been since you were able to “come clean” with Him?
I am praying today that you would not believe a “truth” about yourself that is destructive and steeped in failure or inadequacy to measure up. I am praying that you will confess these “truths” to God and allow Him to begin a new “truth” in your life today – a “truth” that He sees you as – valuable and lovable – no matter what.