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Yesterday I touched on a subject that is delicate.  One that is personal and can sometimes be secretive.  Ownership and a grasp of a deep and contemplative question:  What is your personal truth?  I explained it – and expanded on it just a little in an attempt to show how if we are not able to grasp that for ourselves – it is impossible to be totally authentic with God.

First – what does truth mean?  It can mean two things:

1.  Truth can be scary.  What if I admit something about my character to God that is less than what others believe of me – or less than I even have attempted to believe about myself?  What if God does not accept me when He finds out?  What if He rejects me?

2. Truth brings personal responsibility.  As long as no one knows – and I have cleverly hidden all aspects of myself from God – then I cannot be held responsible.  Once revealed for what it really is – I must take ownership and change the behavior.  There is no middle ground on this.  And this can be scary.

And although most of us believe that God is a loving God who forgives – whether raised in church or not – it is still easy to believe this in our head only – and not really believe it with our heart.  I mean – there’s a limit to what God will forgive, right?  Or what He will accept about me, right?  And so with this thinking it can be difficult to really come clean with things like:

Dishonesty

Failure (moral or otherwise)

Addiction

Greed and selfishness

Idolatry

It is easy to hide from things in the above list –  and not really admit or own it.

What if my personal truth looks like this?:

 I am a failure

 I am a liar

I am an addict

I am worthless

I caused someone I love to go away

I am not lovable

If God knew what I thought He would not love me

All of the above statements could be true in your life today.  But here is the really good news:

God has a different view of truth.  He is able to cut to the chase whether I am honest about myself to Him or not.  He will wait for a confession – and an admission of truth from me – He is a gentleman.  And when I allow Him to change how I see that truth based on His reflection of love and grace – I find there is no fear – only a far greater understanding of myself than I ever thought I had.  And it’s okay – because He loves me anyway – just the way I am – broken, full of sin and failure, unable to help myself or even be honest about it.

His personal truth for ME radically changes my life.

His truth looks like this:

I don’t see personal failure – I see a bruised masterpiece

I don’t see addiction – I see a wonderful freedom

I don’t see inadequacy and the feeling of worthlessness – I see a precious gift

I don’t see the sin – it’s been covered

God’s truth is better than my attempt at truth

God’s truth is better than my self-righteous claim

God’s truth does not have any room for my pride or feeling of entitlement

What I try to deny and hide from Him – He knows and will deal with me

God’s truth about me – is the only truth I need in my life.

God’s truth is the only thing that will change my behavior from the inside out.

His truth says:

I am worth so much – that He sent His son – to die for me. 

Wow.  Is it really possible that I’m worth dying for?  How can that be?

He values me

He loves me

I am worthy

I am validated

I am loved

And no matter what I do – I cannot change this truth about myself – as God sees me.  It is indisputable in His eyes.

Are there areas of your heart that you have not allowed God to shine His truth?  How long has it been since you were able to “come clean” with Him?

I am praying today that you would not believe a “truth” about yourself that is destructive and steeped in failure or inadequacy to measure up.  I am praying that you will confess these “truths” to God and allow Him to begin a new “truth” in your life today – a “truth” that He sees you as – valuable and lovable – no matter what.

God Bless


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Comments on: "What Is Your Personal Truth? – Part Two" (13)

  1. […] What Is Your Personal Truth? – Part Two (cindyholman.wordpress.com) […]

  2. Cindy, Wonderfully written! This is a subject touched in the famous (or unfamous) book “Love Wins” by Rob Bell, which says that our own story about ourselves is different than the story God has about ourselves. We tend to accuse, blame, torture, and judge ourselves in negative ways, or we go to the other extreme, we exalt, idolize, or inflate ourselves with self worshipping, both extremes are used to hide the Truth about ourselves. I believe that, in spite of our weaknesses and limitations, we are still loved by God. We either would not accept ourselves by being hard on ourselves, or by pretending we are greater than who we really our. God sees the real “Me”. My question remains, “If I don’t ever accept God’s story about me, will I ever be “saved” from myself?” Hmmmmm……

    • Thanks for the great comment – you are so right – those without God’s love and “view” of them are hopelessly seeing too much or too little of themselves without hope.

  3. The older I get, the more I realize the importance of having a totally honest relationship with God. And His view of me is always so much more forgiving than my view of myself! I am so grateful for that!

  4. Oh God knows me pretty well. Ya can’t hide anything from Him. He knows I have trouble dealing with certain things and He knows I get grumpy when I can’t. The past several weeks were a testament to that! Techno troubles and health issues made me a bit more than grumpy lately. I get periodic and horrific headaches that last for days or even weeks. I have a hard time finding peace during those times, but He knows that.

    • I’m so glad He knows all about us – grumpy or not 🙂 When I’m being really emotional about something stupid – I remind myself that God does not make any mistakes with how He made me and surely He understands – even though I don’t.

  5. Beautiful and thought provoking post. Things that need to be said.

    ” I see a bruised masterpiece” wonderful!

  6. I like to lean on God’s perspective of me. He has it right, I’m beautifully and wonderfully made, I am a Son, redeemed and justified by the works of Christ. He knows my name, the hairs on my head and everything in me.

    I like that view. The others are just… opinions.

    • I find that I finally have to lean on that too – sometimes after I have tried it on my own and allowed what others think of me to win. The only “win” for me is to see myself through His eyes of love. And you’re right Moe – everyone else’s “truth” is just opinion. God knows me by name and the deepest things about me – and loves me anyway – that’s all I need to know.

  7. Powerful words, Cindy. I too struggle with believing God’s truth over the lies the accuser tosses at me. Thanks for sharing!

    • Dustin – I think we all do – even if we do not think we do – my fiercely independent self thinks I can handle the “truth” as I see it. Instead I find I can’t – and at the end of the day – it’s what God thinks about me that really matters.

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