I have not been able to shake a feeling the last couple of days. And feelings being what they are – “feelings” – I have tried to push it down and ignore it.
Last night it had an ever-growing intensity – I was not feeling well either so that might have contributed to this – uh – feeling – but I’m not sure. My stomach was jumpy and I could actually feel anticipation.
There have only been a couple of times that I have felt like this. It’s the feeling that I get when somebody is about to jump out at me – saying “BOO” – or when I am looking at some daunting task before me – and need to “jump in” or “jump off” as it were. The same feeling in my stomach – in preparation for it to lurch and dance around.
But since I have no reason to feel this way – and certainly not last night – it’s been a little unnerving. Life is pretty calm here these days. Oh like everyone else – I have some unresolved issues with a friend and have not been able to put that to right – as of yet – and there are some other issues – but nothing that has not been there before. It is nothing new in my world. Things are calm – if not totally resolved or finished. And yet...I feel it. Ever building. Ever present. Anticipation.
In my spirit I can feel something – I’m just not sure what it is. But there is a whisper of hope – a whisper of anticipation with that hope. And although it is scary – the dark unknown – it makes me smile.
Do you suppose that things are about to change – for the better in issues that I have had no control over? Things that I was sure were hopeless and unresolvable? Or are “feelings” just feelings. Does God whisper to you in your spirit – something you just can’t shake?
When was the last time you had a “feeling” you couldn’t shake? A feeling of anticipation? Did you ever find out the reason for it, later?
One of my favorite Carly Simon songs is called “Anticipation” – here it is for you to listen to – Enjoy and God Bless!