“One day your life will flash before your eyes. Make sure it’s worth watching.” –Unknown
At the end of the day – when no one else is watching, that is where truth and honesty shake hands and become good friends. Forced together in the privacy of my own heart – this is where I find myself, facing my own life and my own truth.
It is not what I do in public, or even with good friends – it is what happens to me in private that really matters.
I can “put it on” – and shine for people – light up a stage, cause people to laugh, or even brighten someone’s day. But it is in that secret place that only I know about, where my life begins and ends.
My good deeds will indeed be remembered by many, and my encouragement and willingness to lend a hand to those in need, my gifts of service to others and even things I write about, be note worthy and even may be talked about at the end of my time here on earth.
But it is in my heart – the place where no one sees that is of worth to God alone. He takes special interest – enough to make a permanent dwelling place there. It is there that I cannot hide my attitude, my motives and my desires. I am forced to be real, honest, flawed, imperfect, disheartened, confused, depressed, even rebellious and questioning. Most of these things I can easily hide from you. But I cannot hide it from myself or God.
So for me to be a success – it is not in the outward, the things I have accomplished in my work, with friends or family – it is in the private moments and in the state of my own heart. The place that I am reduced to each day when I am alone with my own thoughts. Where God remains with no signs of bolting. He stays through the toughest storms in my mind – the confusion of hurt, and even when I’m not being honest with myself. He stays to be a gentle reminder of what my life can be. A buffer to still the messiness and clutter that I take on myself. He alone knows the real me – what my life is really like away from the eyes of people I know.
And though I am well aware that I have not arrived – I would like my private life – that only God and I know about to be His vision for me.
One where I have learned through experience, time and patience that kindness, gentleness, meekness and graciousness have won and are becoming more evident, more real, each new year – as I strain forward to be more loving and more understanding and compassionate, regardless of circumstances around me, or reactions of events or from people who have come and gone. It will be that steady, unwavering conviction that love always wins, gentleness heals, and showing mercy is always the best way.
This is what I hold as a true value in my life – and the true test whether I have been a success at the end of my life.
What about you? Will your life be a life worth watching?
- What is my worth? (evolvingletters.wordpress.com)
- When Is Truth – Just Perspective? (cindyholman.com)