This last week I have seen and felt the change in the weather. No more crisp, sunny days. But a constant dripping. Wetness everywhere. Darkness has come in the early mornings and seems to stay most of the day. I didn’t think it bothered me. It never used to. But sunshine does seem to affect my overall emotional climate. I’m not sure why – but I know it does.
With this change I have felt a heaviness. Not a depression per say – not even sadness – but something in between. The doldrums.
I heard a wonderful message some time back on “giving back”. Sharing gifts, talents, resources with others in need – and who may just need a little extra love and encouragement. When we help others and give of ourselves – it does something in our spirit.
I have also noticed that when we “give” instead of holding tight to “what we should get” – there is a release and a lightness of spirit. Letting go of something we feel someone owes us – and being the bigger person by saying, “My fault” or “I’m sorry – I take full responsibility” is liberating.
This happened to me just this last week. Even when I know I’m in the right – it does not free my spirit when the other person is held hostage by my insistence. So – I just let it go. And freed them. And me. And don’t have that weight of “rightness” anymore. It feels great – even if it’s still raining outside.
And I turned on inspiring Christmas music – all the ‘feel good’ stuff that puts a smile on my face – no matter what. Fond memories of crackling fires, hot cocoa and snuggling while watching a favorite movie.
A clear conscience and a light spirit – a sure cure for the doldrums.
Take care and God Bless