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Keep Me In Your Heart

I had actually planned on posting another song today.  Then I was returning emails and checking messages at my computer and this song came on  my Spotify music list.  It was the song they played at the end of the “House” series.  For some reason it really speaks to me.  And I can’t get away from it.

Spotify Logo

Spotify Logo (Photo credit: Dekuwa)

Music sometimes does that to me.  I have something else going on and then am stopped dead in my tracks.  Maybe it’s because of things going on right now.  Maybe it’s because life throws some strange curve balls.  Maybe it’s because each new day brings new revelations and surprises.  I  think I am in control and then find that I have no control.  Circumstances come in to literally rock my world as they also sound strangely familiar.  A shadow of the past coming and staring straight at me.

 

In times like this I am humbled and thankful.  Humbled because I don’t deserve the grace and forgiveness of a great and wonderful God.  Thankful that in spite of the many mistakes and wrong turns I have made in the past I was able to right my path and live in victory.  I am surrounded by many loving people to encourage me in my life’s purpose and calling.  I am grateful.

 

But I realize that there are those not fully there yet.  They have their own journey to take and discover.  Things coming in to rock their world.  It is hard to see people take wrong turns and spin out of control.   We are all capable of  doing this from time to time.  Spin, justify, retreat, reason, ponder, turn, let go, go our own way.

 

This song is a song about a man dying.  Written and sung by Warren Zevon, I believe he realized his life as he ponders death.  What is really important.  The things he really loves.  A man who does not want to be forgotten.  Wants to know that his life mattered.   When it comes right down to it – don’t we all want this?  To be remembered, to have mattered.  Our actions we took in this life will mean something to us someday as we face our mortality.  Those things we thought were so important, worth fighting for, things we gave up, none of it will matter someday.  It is a sobering thought.  What is so important?  Is it really worth the spin?  Will people want to remember you when you’re gone?

It is a sobering thought.  Someday my actions will be called in to recall by those left behind.  I don’t know about you – but I want to be able to say “remember me” and when people do – they will have a good positive memory of my life and what I was called to do.

I wish the same for you.

Enjoy this song and the great lyrics.  May you ponder the same thing today and if you need to – make a change.

The Wind (album)

The Wind (album) (Photo credit: Wikipedia)

 

 

God Bless

 

 

 

 

Color in Seattle – Drinking it IN!!

Callistemon citrinus flowers.

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I was out for a walk today and noticed the brilliant colors of flowers on trees and bushes.  I also noticed something peculiar.   Healthy bushes next to dead ones.   Life and death right next to each other.  A beautiful and healthy bush  – full and lush with bright flowers in abundance – next to a withered up and dead plant.  Why was one alive and thriving – and the other one in the same yard, dead?  It didn’t make any sense to me.  I came across other dead looking bushes around the neighborhood and was surprised to  see that these were not just in an abandoned or neglected yard – but also in ones that were meticulously cared for.  Sometimes there is nothing really wrong.  Sometimes it just is what it is.  It’s the circle – a time for life and a time for death.

It was a puzzle for me.  Life is a little like this – life next to death – color next to black and white.  Openness next to closed and shut up.  A heart with a song – a life with no meaning.  Some people flourish and bloom where they are planted – others stop living, wither up and die.  And like in nature sometimes it is because there was not enough nourishment to the roots – or reason to live – sometimes it was just because it was the time to die.

Is there a time when death can become life?  New from old?   How did it change you?  Is there time to let something or someone go?  Have you ever had to do this in your own life?

Below is a little slideshow of some of the beauty in my neighborhood as I walked along.  I’m taking you along on my walk today – sharing a little of this with you.

Enjoy the color of Seattle – drink it in.

God Bless

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Cadavers – The Dead Truth

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Image by Paul Phung via Flickr

Yesterday was a very strange day.  I went to a dermatologist appointment with my husband – and while in the elevator on the way out – he suddenly looks at his phone, talks to NO ONE and then proceeds to march me through another doorway, opposite of the way out.  I kept asking him, “where are we going”?  He mumbled something non coherent and continued down this strange hallway to this innocent looking office.  He was obviously looking for someone – and he’d been there before – but I was completely in the dark.  We entered the abandoned office and then looked though a glass window to a very large lab behind the office.  Greg recognized the man behind the glass and said, “There he is!” and then proceeded to walk to some offices in search of the man’s wife – saying, “I’m just wanting to stop by and say hello”.  But I’m like – “who ARE these people?”  Now I’m not one of those wives who HAS to know everything about her husband, where he goes, who he knows etc.  – but I was curious – and a little bewildered.  Greg  finding no one in the office said – ‘we’re going to have to go in and say hello’.  Then he quickly said, in an excited voice, “this is a lab where they do experiments and procedures on dead body parts – isn’t it GREAT”?  Well why didn’t you just say so.  Uhhh – WHAT?

Just then a woman came out of the lab,  recognized Greg and asked if we wanted to come in a “take a look”.  I said firmly to Greg – “Uh – I’m staying here – you can go say hello”  and he was like, “but I want him to meet you – you have to come” and then started dragging me in.

It was very surreal.  The body parts were all neatly covered up – but it was creepy all the same.  I have never been around dead bodies in my life.  My husband does funerals for a living and is used to and quite comfortable with death and dying.  I just never realized HOW comfortable.  As we walked into the lab another woman asked me if I wanted scrubs – and would I be assisting today?  I was like, “No thank you – I’m with HIM.”  We stood there in this giant lab surrounded by what must have been a dozen or more gurneys with dead body parts under blue plastic – chatting and talking about how wonderful everything was.  I thought to myself, – ‘no one will ever believe me.’

This organization is part of a body donor program – allowing medical trainees and other medical professions come and do procedures on cadavers to further training for live patients.  Yesterday they were learning how to do hip replacements.  They were expecting 80 or so medical personal to work on the hip section body parts on the tables.  This organization  also picks up and transports bodies as they come available.  Now my husband will be on call to help them in this.  Sure – why not?  All in a day’s work, I say.

This experience had me in some what of a fog for the rest of my insanely busy day, teaching and rehearsing – for not only “Bugsy Malone” – which opens in 3 weeks – but also my students have a recital in a month!  Good grief – what a day.

How was YOUR day?  Can you top this?  Would you like to have seen the lab like my husband all excited and just like a little boy?  Or would you have been just a little “creeped out” – like me?

Here’s to you and yours – wishing you a day with no cadavers and dead body parts in it – unless you want it to be 🙂

God Bless

The Recent Tragedies

A couple of weeks ago my husband did a memorial service for a 16-year-old girl who died tragically from a gun-shot wound.  And last night a young 17-year-old girl from the church body where we were on staff for 13 years – was killed in an automobile accident.

Both of these events – as well as many more this past year, seem senseless and hard to understand.  I can’t even begin to know the depth of sorrow that the family members and close friends are going through.  It is one of life’s biggest mysteries.  But I also believe that these lives are in God’s hands – and sometimes when you have no other explanation for things that happen – it is reassuring and comforting to know.

One of my favorite older Michael W. Smith songs is a song called ‘I hear Leesha’ – written about a young girl lost in a car accident.  It is reported that she was the younger of two sisters in the car – and the older one survived.  The older sister had a terrible time over the loss until she had a vision where she saw her sister in heaven telling her,”I’m okay”.  It’s a very moving and powerful song – especially if you’ve ever lost anyone close to you.

This song is dedicated to the families of these two girls – and I am praying that you will find comfort in your time of deepest darkness and sorrow.

God Bless


Seems like it was only yesterday
She was living here
Yea, she was living here
Lord knows why He’s taken her away
It isn’t very clear, no it isn’t very clear
Into every life a little rain must fall
And losing one you love is like a storm
But storms are passing
Chorus:
I hear Leesha
Singing in heaven tonight
And in between the sadness
I hear Leesha
Telling me that she’s alright
Life goes on even after life
That’s what I believe
Yea, that’s what I believe
Leesha’s gone, but she will still survive
In a memory that I’m keeping here with me
Silencing the voice of mortal tragedy
Listening to whispers of the soul
All is peaceful

Leesha

One of my favorite older Michael W. Smith songs – written about a young girl lost in a car accident.  It is reported that she was the younger of two sisters in the car – and the older one survived.  The older sister had a terrible time over the loss until she had a vision where she saw her sister in heaven telling her,”I’m okay”.  It’s a very moving and powerful song – especially if you’ve ever lost anyone close to you.  Enjoy!

Seems like it was only yesterday
She was living here
Yea, she was living here
Lord knows why He’s taken her away
It isn’t very clear, no it isn’t very clear
Into every life a little rain must fall
And losing one you love is like a storm
But storms are passing
Chorus:
I hear Leesha
Singing in heaven tonight
And in between the sadness
I hear Leesha
Telling me that she’s alright
Life goes on even after life
That’s what I believe
Yea, that’s what I believe
Leesha’s gone, but she will still survive
In a memory that I’m keeping here with me
Silencing the voice of mortal tragedy
Listening to whispers of the soul
All is peaceful

Sand and Water

All alone I didn’t like the feeling
All alone I sat and cried
All alone I had to find some meaning
In the center of the pain I felt inside

All alone I came into this world
All alone I will someday die
Solid stone is just sand and water, baby
Sand and water, and a million years gone by

I will see you in the light of a thousand suns
I will hear you in the sound of the waves
I will know you when I come, as we all will come
Through the doors beyond the grave

All alone I heal this heart of sorrow
All alone I raise this child
Flesh and bone, he’s just
Bursting towards tomorrow
And his laughter fills my world and wears your smile

I will see you in the light of a thousand suns
I will hear you in the sound of the waves
I will know you when I come, as we all will come
Through the doors beyond the grave

All alone I came into this world
All alone I will someday die
Solid stone is just sand and water, baby
Sand and water and a million years gone by

This song was written by Beth Chapman after she lost her husband to cancer – and had to raise a small son on her own. I thought it was a fitting song to end this day with.  So many around me have felt this pain just recently.  My best friend Laura also lost her husband 2 years ago to cancer.

This song is for all of you who have felt the pain of a loss.

Love and Hugs to you ♥

The Circle

A baby is born

A dear “saint” of the faith dies

A tree loses it’s leaves at full color

A small bud sprouts up in the spring

It’s the circle

We are born

We live

Then we die

All of nature has a rhythm

A perfect timing

A reason

A purpose

Sometimes we can’t see

God working through our seasons

Causing new life from death

Real living from just existing

And like that baby

We learn again

We slowly take steps

We are cautious

But we step out

We love

We live

We embrace life

We take a chance

We risk again

We find our “full bloom”

Our purpose

Our rhythm

Our reason

And we really live

We embrace

and we see

God’s fingerprint of purpose in our life

And then the time comes

For our light to go out

And a new life to come in

We die

And they are born

It’s the circle

Dedicated to my friends, Nikki and Ron

God Bless you in your loss.

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