If you have ever been in a state of flux, that precarious place between certainty and doubt – then you will understand where we are at right now.
The older I get, the more comfortable I become. Comfortable with myself, my husband, friendships and my surroundings. Having a home and “things” have provided a feeling of being settled and being safe. But the things I own – do not own me. I am thankful for that. I have watched many beloved things come and go throughout our life in ministry together. Whole households of furniture bought and sold – filled up then emptied again. Many times. And it does not define me to be with or without.
We are right back to that place between not knowing and knowing. I don’t much like this place. But as with any pain and testing – it is also a great place to grow and learn many valuable life lessons. Here are a few things I’m learning along the way:
#1 – Let God be God – He will lead and direct if we will listen and are open to it
#2 – Keep a loose grasp on material things that are here today and gone tomorrow
#3 – Be happy as you Live in the moment
#4 – Be grateful and thankful for the little things
#5 – Embrace each new experience as an opportunity to learn
There are many more things I’m bound to learn along this ever changing journey I am on. So for now I will say that I am still learning, still open to new possibilities and still becoming.
And so as things are walking out of our home once again – I’m finding myself back at this same place. Uncertain, struggling to make things work, trying to be okay with an unresolved future and place to land. And strangely – it’s all right.
I am uncertain about the future – but I am happy and confident that He will lead us…Ever been there? Are you still here?